This resonated with me heavily as someone who has been feeling this sort of listlessness strongly the past couple of months, and as someone who has dealt with varying degrees of feeling lost for most of my adult life (post-college). I’m 31 and single, no kids, working a corporate job that doesn’t necessarily align with the things I’m most passionate about, but allows me to live a comfortable life. I want to be a writer (or at least I think I do?) but find myself paralyzed over starting. Forming the habit of writing has been a perpetual goal for me the past 5 or 10 years, but I’m terrified of trying and failing. This fear has left me in a stasis of sorts, leaving me perpetually feeling unfulfilled, or like I’m wasting time. I’m determined to create a habit of it this year, even if I do fail to produce anything substantial, just so I can know definitively whether I actually enjoy the process of writing like I once did or not. I want to try and chase dreams again vs just doing what is necessary to get by comfortably in life, and seeing how you’ve developed your music scene presence from the rock reacts days to now is a huge inspiration to me to get moving again.
This speaks to me in so many ways as I'm in my early 20s now and feeling the exact same emotions and especially trying to start making better habits and continuing it which is a HUGE struggle for me so thats what I'm hoping to make it better.
Also thanks for your content throughout the years, found your content through Mac Miller's Good News and along recommending Atomic Habits(still haven't finished reading yet but will finish it soon).
interesting, I’m around that age you first felt that listless lostness, however I think I’m not worried about finding my purpose (I’m reassured by similar things I hear, like this post, that it will become clear if I keep going) but instead worried about not ever really feeling aligned with that purpose consistently - like you say you have been since the birth of your son. it feels great as you say to be in that state, and reminding myself of tips like going outside and exercising is what seems to have helped so far.
You gotta check out boldys other records if you haven't already. A good place to start would be his trilogy of records produced by the Alchemist (The Price of Tea in China - Bo Jackson - Super Techmo Bo). My mvp of the 2020s by a significant margin.
This resonated with me heavily as someone who has been feeling this sort of listlessness strongly the past couple of months, and as someone who has dealt with varying degrees of feeling lost for most of my adult life (post-college). I’m 31 and single, no kids, working a corporate job that doesn’t necessarily align with the things I’m most passionate about, but allows me to live a comfortable life. I want to be a writer (or at least I think I do?) but find myself paralyzed over starting. Forming the habit of writing has been a perpetual goal for me the past 5 or 10 years, but I’m terrified of trying and failing. This fear has left me in a stasis of sorts, leaving me perpetually feeling unfulfilled, or like I’m wasting time. I’m determined to create a habit of it this year, even if I do fail to produce anything substantial, just so I can know definitively whether I actually enjoy the process of writing like I once did or not. I want to try and chase dreams again vs just doing what is necessary to get by comfortably in life, and seeing how you’ve developed your music scene presence from the rock reacts days to now is a huge inspiration to me to get moving again.
This speaks to me in so many ways as I'm in my early 20s now and feeling the exact same emotions and especially trying to start making better habits and continuing it which is a HUGE struggle for me so thats what I'm hoping to make it better.
Also thanks for your content throughout the years, found your content through Mac Miller's Good News and along recommending Atomic Habits(still haven't finished reading yet but will finish it soon).
interesting, I’m around that age you first felt that listless lostness, however I think I’m not worried about finding my purpose (I’m reassured by similar things I hear, like this post, that it will become clear if I keep going) but instead worried about not ever really feeling aligned with that purpose consistently - like you say you have been since the birth of your son. it feels great as you say to be in that state, and reminding myself of tips like going outside and exercising is what seems to have helped so far.
thanks for the post too!
You gotta check out boldys other records if you haven't already. A good place to start would be his trilogy of records produced by the Alchemist (The Price of Tea in China - Bo Jackson - Super Techmo Bo). My mvp of the 2020s by a significant margin.